Nose ring, pink hair, tattoo. These are just a few things that I have done over the past 6 months. Maybe it is because through all the chaos my life has been I needed to do things that I had control over. Or, maybe, just maybe this was me all along waiting to burst out.
I have had many awkward eyes googling over me the past week and it has started to really get to me. You would think that in our culture today seeing someone with pink hair isn’t all that different. I even had a man slow down and walk past me again just to get another view. Like, come on! I digress.
I was never fully confident growing up. I was more a follower of the crowd than stepping out and being who I was inside. I was teased a lot in my elementary years and first few years of high school. Not only by peers at school but also by family members. I never asked questions or spoke out in class. I never joined certain sports in fear of failure or not being “cool” enough. My self-esteem was low and really didn’t get that much better into my teenage years. I hid it well, like most of us usually do.
Now I’m about to turn 30 this August. You reach a certain point in life when you just do not give a flying (insert profanity here). I’m sick of holding back who I am and the things that make me uniquely who I am. I’m extremely lucky to have a husband who has just said to me, “Do what you got to do,” this past year. He looks at me and says, “You are beautiful, nose ring and all. Pink hair and all. Tattoo and all.” And also having all you wonderful people tell me how awesome it all looks!
|Shirt by Be Still Clothing Co.|
All of these things do not necessarily define who I am but they are an expression of my creativeness and love for being bold. I also love bold and bright lipstick! There I said it, #lipstickjunkie.
The other part of me is my faith. It really makes up most of who I am. I love sharing what Christ has done in my life, sharing scripture and praying for you all!
What are you holding back from today? What is something that you have always wanted to do but afraid to do it? What can you do to make it happen? I asked my husband the other day, “What is one thing that you want to learn or do this summer?” His answer was simple but just what he has been desiring for a long time now. Mine, I have one more on my list and that is to learn the guitar and possibly sing, okay maybe that’s two things. I started learning the guitar just before I was pregnant with David and then never picked it back up again after the few lessons that I had. My dream is to be able to sit and worship together as a family.
This morning start thinking about it throughout your day and tonight write it down! Then this summer make it happen! Is there a hike you have always wanted to conquer? Taking up learning a new skill or hobby like photography or painting? Starting writing that book you have always wanted too. Write it down! You can even leave a comment and share with me. I read all the comments I promise! Then come back here and share with me when you did it!