My friend Louise this past year started a Thankful Thursday over at her blog Talk Nerdy to Me. I look forward to them each week and with recent hard times in our family I’ve turned to the book One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp and want to start my own thankful Thursdays. I started this book over a year ago but only got through the first few chapters. Although I enjoyed reading it I don’t think I would have truly got what I am getting out of it now. God is good.
You see the past year and a half as been hell. And I know that things could always be worse, like not having a roof over my head or food in my stomach, but for me it was my hell. A friend recently asked me how I was doing and after responding I did not truly fully understand what it was I have been feeling this past year and a half until I wrote it out. I’ll share with you my response.
have been better but I am getting better. These last few years have
been such a whirlwind with babies and moving and growing, or the lack
of, as parents and husband and wife. We grew apart, especially this year
took it’s toll on us but we are striving to unite again and things are
going well. Lots of change needs to be made on my side. Jon loves me so
but my walls to let him fully in never were fully down from past hurts
and grew thicker after David was born due to Jon’s overwhelming busy schedule.
Resentment grew and loneliness darkened my love and myself.
God is good though and this I know for sure and what keeps my hope alive
for our family and for the current situation we are in.”
God is good. And I am learning the true meaning of having joy through trails. Trust. Find joy. Trust. Find joy. Trust. Sandy toes. Trust. Sleeping babies. Trust. Peacock feathers. Trust. Heads rested on shoulder during story time. TRUST.
1.)My beautiful Children. Life is a mess some days. Kids are crank pots, I’m a crank pot but it is still a blessing and when I look upon them after they have all fallen asleep I am in awe at how truly blessed I am.
2.)A husband who cherishes me no matter what. I’m not always the easiest to get along with some days. But Jonathon always tells me how much he loves me and that we will get through this.
3.)Being married for 5 years. We have hit the 5 year mark!! yahhhoo! I also didn’t want to just go to dinner and a movie this year so I got the bright idea to sign us up for the Spartan 5k Race. I thought we’d have all this time to train and get ready but we didn’t and I was terrified! BUT it was awesome! We finished in 2hrs holding hands jumping through fire! God is good!
4.)SUMMER!!! The days have been awesome going to the beach and letting the kids play outside all day. They were in bed by 6:30 tonight! Can I get an AMEN! haha
5.)Friends and my Mom. I have had such support over this past month. Thank you to everyone who has given me advice or asked if I needed anything, encouraged me to join a bible study; thank you from the bottom of my heart. And letting me stay in the spare bedroom for 3 days and fed me, gave me space and spoiled me, thanks mom!