The last few days have not been so good. Yesterday must have
been the worst day in a long time. David just would not settle, my girls are
sick and I think I was trying to function on 3 hours sleep. I had a semi little
breakdown which now has resulted in a sore neck, don’t ask!
baby that cried all the time because I just would not be able to handle it. My
two girls were angels and they would only whimper when something was bothering
them like a dirty diaper or they were hungry. I do remember Abigail being a
little more difficult and having some of the same qualities that David is
having right now but it was only me and Abigail then. I would just lie on the
couch with her in my arms and watch movies and drift off to sleep when she did.
Now however I cannot do that I have two other little ones running around to
feed, take potty, change poopie diapers and get to bed at a decent hour while
trying not to just stick on movies all night. I guess the Lord is teaching me
patients and teaching me ways to control my anger.
I’ve always been up front with people when they ask what is
something that I struggle with and anger is my big “demon” or stronghold you
can say. When I was a child it was really bad since maturing it has gotten
better but there are still times when I let it get the best of me. A few months
back I took a 4 week course about going deeper in my faith. Something that
really stuck out to me that was said was that “you let yourself do any action
you want to.” At times I would think that I could just not help myself when I
would blow up but really I was giving myself permission to do so. I could have
stopped, I didn’t have to let it get that far but I wanted it to. Now with
taking this recent 30 day challenge I have really realized how much I do not
need to get angry. It’s funny in my women’s bible study group we read a book
called “Grace based parenting” and it is all about parenting your children with
the grace that God gives you. I loved the book and there were so many great
tips about being more gracious to your children but I never really changed
until reading the “Orange Rhino” article.
past few weeks is remembering that children have bad days too just like grown-ups.
Today was a great example for me to remember this. It is Friday pay day so this
is the day that we go grocery shopping. Abigail was being extremely whinny
today from the time she woke up to the time I put her for a nap about an hour
ago. I was starting to lose my patients and so was my husband but then I
stopped myself and remembered hey, she’s not always like this, she’s sick for
one and for two being stuck in a shopping cart for 2 hours isn’t the most fun
when you are 3.
It’s amazing how better our day can get when we just change
our thinking. Recently on pinterest I saw this poster that said, “Breathe. It’s
just a bad day, not a bad life.” We tend to dwell on the negative our day
throws at us but if we shift our thinking and be thankful for the life we
already do have even if it’s a cloudy day it’ll feel like the sun is shining
because really, the sun is always just beyond the clouds anyways 😉
|My joys in life minus David whom was napping|
|Daddy playing hide and seek in the flowers|
|The result when she couldn’t see him..lol|
Happy Friday everyone!